Virgin: It wasn’t special at all and I regret it. Honestly, it was just us laying down on my bed with me not knowing what the fuck I was doing. My mind went blank, so my body was basically paralyzed. It was over before I realized.

Future: Yes, that way I would be relatively prepared for the worst and the anxiety would stop.

Turn: Italo Ibertti

Cinema:  The Notebook -as cliche as it may seem, it actually gives me hope two individuals can love each other like Noah and Allie did.

Years: The summer before senior year began, I went to my second concert with Christopher. The concert featured: Wiz Khalifa, Mac Miller, Kendrick Lamar, and Schoolboy Q. Once we got to our seats, we saw Kendrick Lamar leave the stage (Chris yelled out “Have my babies” as he walked by our row). Then we saw Mac Miller’s full performance as the sun began to set on the Jones Beach tide. It was absolutely amazing. On the bus and LIRR ride back home, we just kept talking. Everything was perfect until I ran away from my own emotions and didn’t kiss him. I should have kissed him.